Inadequate

I used to be the shyest person ever.
Afraid to make friends.
Afraid of being judged.
Afraid of being seen.
And then one day I was noticed.
And that person told his friends to notice me.
Then their friends noticed me.
Then one day I put myself on stage let everyone notice me.
Then I became the person that everyone knew.
It was six degrees of separation through me.
It came to a point to where I couldn't afford to go unnoticed.
I was this version of myself that could do anything because the people around thought I could.
Inside I was still that shy person afraid of the world.
I would stay in the middle of the pack but I would be the shinning star.
People would gravitate towards me because I blend well.
I can be hood, dapper, proper, nerd whatever the occasion called for.
People were comfortable around me and here I am not even comfortable with myself.
Every day was an inner struggle of emotion.
I would meet people and they would know me.
I was the go to guy.
The guy who knew where to go on what day.
You want drugs I knew where to get them.
You want clothes I had a plug.
Bars, I knew them all.
I opened my friends to genres of music they never paid attention to.
Fashion? I created my own style.
Girls I had no type.
I got them all.
Hood rats, thots, prissy, spoiled Spanish white black all walks of life.
Again I made everyone comfortable. I can appeal to a person's ego.
I was everyone's bad decision.
Not because they didn't want more out of me.
They all wished I was better.
They just didn't want to wait for me to catch up.
Spoiled by media everyone yearns for this fantasy world relationship.
Traveling the world every month. Weekends in the Hamptons.
Summers in Ibiza.
VIP in the clubs.
And I have the potential to do all that.
Hell I know everyone that does do that.
They all want me to hang out with them.
But how do I get that for myself.
How did they figure that out.
How do I turn the potential to do everything into something.
Why does the guy with the Bentley want me to party with them because they know I know where to go but all I want is to be left alone.
Why do I want to be left alone.
Because even surrounded by people who sing your praises you're still that shy person scared to be seen by the world.
Afraid that you're not good enough.
Afraid that you won't succeed.
Afraid that no matter what potential you have inside you the one thing you want the most is out of reach.
Afraid that if you try you'll fail again and again.
Afraid of life.
Afraid of being special.

Mr. Inadequate

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Room 1111

It was a normal day at the hotel, I've been here enough to be used to the day to day so when they asked me to check rooms I was ok with it. Why not I thought whats the worst that can happen, besides what if I find something of interest? So I grab my list of rooms and and a master key and went on my merry way. So for those reading at home, room checks are when it is past check out time and they haven't checked out yet, so you knock on the door hoping somebody or nobody answers before you just open it to see if anyone is there. My list is pretty short, 2 rooms on the second floor and 1 on the eleventh. I walk up to the second floor and check the two rooms to find them empty as they should be so I cross them off my list.  I get up to the eleventh floor to room and 11 and joke to myself 1111 make a wish. In reality my wish was that this would be easy I can go back down and continue on with the rest of my day. So I knock on the door no response, I knock again "Front Desk", still no response. I knock one more time as I key myself in "Front Desk keying in." As I unlock the door and enter the room this woman is dancing with her headphones in with a towel around her hair fully naked. I was in awe for a split second as she didn't notice at first. In that split second it took to open the door see everything and slip out before she noticed, I was noticed. I backed out and closed the door praying she didn't see me or think me a pervert and turned to walk away. Before I even turn around she has the door opened again naked with a towel around her head and is dragging me into her room. I'm no stranger to naked beautiful women wanting me to have my way with them but i was a little nervous. I really didn't want to lose my job but I also don't want her to extort me into something I can't even do, like a free room or something. Before I even begin to say anything with her headphones still on and dancing in her own little world she locks the door and unzips my pants. I am turned on and terrified at the same time. She pulls my pants down and my cock out. She strokes it enough to get me erect, seeing as the situation has me in whirlwind of emotions right now a fear boner emerges. She puts it in her mouth bobbing her head to the sound of the music as she starts sucking my cock. I don't know who this women is or where she is from but she is amazing at sucking cock. It's like she was french kissing me but my penis, and I'm not sure but I'm pretty sure the headphones added this vibration affect which enhanced the already amazing blow job I was getting. The excitement of all this lead me to an early unexpected orgasm that I let happen with no warning. The way she was going, the rhythm she was in I don't even know if she noticed cause she didn't even flinch as semen started dribbling down her chin as well as whatever she clearly had swallowed. I had to stop her because I could barely stand from the draining orgasm I just experienced. I felt like the life was literally sucked out  of me. She detaches her mouth from my cock wipes the cum of her chin and swallows that before she gets up grabs my cock walks me over to the bed she bends over and takes my half flaccid penis and sticks it in her vagina. still with her headphones on she starts grinding herself into me. It didn't take long for me to be fully erect inside her again. She took full control of the situation, she sped up when she wanted me to fuck her harder and slowly grind into me when she wanted to slow things down. She pulled me out and laid on her back pulling me back in sticking a leg up in the air and maneuvering it around my neck as if it were and arm pulling me closer. this women was my secret sexual soulmate and I haven't said to words to her yet. I think she could sense in my face that I was gonna cum again so she slid down off the bed and on to her knees and took me in her mouth again until I came. Swallowing me once again, she stands up pulls my pants up gives me a kiss on the cheek backs me out of her room and shuts the door. In complete awe of what just happened I went back downstairs expecting to get fired for being away for too long. As I went back to my desk and check the first 2 rooms out my shift manager asked me about the third room. Nervous and a little jumpy I responded swiftly with "She's fine, neededafewminutespacking, I wenttosmokeacigbeforeicamedownstairs." Turned back to the screen and pretend like nothing ever happened. A few minutes later she walks downstairs headphones still in hands me the keys to her room gives me and wink and skips out of my hotel. I look at the key card for a number or anything as if there was a secret hidden clue aside from the sex that she was winking at. Finding nothing I laugh to myself as this smoking hottie took me int to her body made me cum twice and skipped out of here as if it was her good dead of the. Maybe it was and if it wasn't who cares nobody know what just happened. As I take her keys and file them away and go to throw out the card they were held in I look at the back and find a note. Now everyone behind the front desk seems to be looking at me looking at the note. They all kind of gasped and kinda cheered as the note read you taste amazing I'll be back in a month I want you in me again. Not knowing what kind of trouble this would get me into, they all kind of congratulated me an gone about there day. Now I'm very specific about who I let stay in room 1111.

Days Of Lust

She wanted a tour of the store and I was more then happy to oblige her. Lucky for me my coworker knows how to do my job so I felt comfortable leaving her in the front. The client just wanted to do a stand up machine so I showed her the best one we have.  This machine has four panels and is very open its also roomy. She agreed to this one so we went back to the front and set her up. I took her back to the room again to show her exactly how it works this time.  I've had enough people fuck that up so now I show them every time.  The way the handle bars are set up in the machine you would think you can do pull ups in there.  I always like to demonstrate as a joke.  Me being so tall I don't actually pull myself up.  So as a joke I made her try.  She grabs on to the handle bars and at first she thinks she's gonna break the machine, so I till her not to be scared everyone does it.  She grabs on to the handle bars and starts to pull herself up I grab her waist and start lifting her in the air. She is startled at first but then smiles, I told you you can do it, I say to her.  She smiles again but tries to do it on her own.  She doesn't break it she kinda slips off and almost falls if it weren't for me being right there to catch her.  A little startled from the almost fall and potential damage that could have been, she holds on to me for dear life. Breathing heavily I go to set her on her feet and she squeezes me harder.  I hold her more tightly to ensure her I won't let go.  She turns and maybe through the rush of adrenaline pumping in her she kisses me.  We embrace for a while and it becomes more passionate.  This has to be the adrenaline but I'm not gonna argue here.  I find when a beautiful girl kisses you kiss back and let it take you wherever, worry bout the consequences later.   She is able to stand now without breaking our embrace.  She grabs my arms and holds me caressing me and making her way down to my pants.  She was a little taken a back by the fact I have no belt on but then that just made her job easier, so did the button fly.  Basically ripping my pants open she was ready to thank me for saving her.  Now I'm no hero but when a girl is about to blow you well again you can't really say no to these kind of things.  Her mouth was so giving too, she traced my erection with her tongue she kissed every part of it she welcomed it into her mouth as if she were welcoming god into her life, and I was about to give her the holy spirit if you know what I mean.  Then she stops she smiles teasingly and undress. Her body is perfect she looks back up to those handle bars and now she knows what she has to do. She holds on for dear life and raps her legs around me.  She's not letting got this time but she is getting off. We blast the music in the machine to disrupt the noise but anyone within a mile radius can hear what we're doing in there.  And with one last earth shattering scream she climaxes and slides off my body to he floor. With my rock hard member right in front of her face she takes it in her hand and brings it to her mouth. With very to little effort she swallows my cock and then my cum she collapses then on the floor and laughing proclaims she can't wait to go tanning again