I used to be the shyest person ever.
Afraid to make friends.
Afraid of being judged.
Afraid of being seen.
And then one day I was noticed.
And that person told his friends to notice me.
Then their friends noticed me.
Then one day I put myself on stage let everyone notice me.
Then I became the person that everyone knew.
It was six degrees of separation through me.
It came to a point to where I couldn't afford to go unnoticed.
I was this version of myself that could do anything because the people around thought I could.
Inside I was still that shy person afraid of the world.
I would stay in the middle of the pack but I would be the shinning star.
People would gravitate towards me because I blend well.
I can be hood, dapper, proper, nerd whatever the occasion called for.
People were comfortable around me and here I am not even comfortable with myself.
Every day was an inner struggle of emotion.
I would meet people and they would know me.
I was the go to guy.
The guy who knew where to go on what day.
You want drugs I knew where to get them.
You want clothes I had a plug.
Bars, I knew them all.
I opened my friends to genres of music they never paid attention to.
Fashion? I created my own style.
Girls I had no type.
I got them all.
Hood rats, thots, prissy, spoiled Spanish white black all walks of life.
Again I made everyone comfortable. I can appeal to a person's ego.
I was everyone's bad decision.
Not because they didn't want more out of me.
They all wished I was better.
They just didn't want to wait for me to catch up.
Spoiled by media everyone yearns for this fantasy world relationship.
Traveling the world every month. Weekends in the Hamptons.
Summers in Ibiza.
VIP in the clubs.
And I have the potential to do all that.
Hell I know everyone that does do that.
They all want me to hang out with them.
But how do I get that for myself.
How did they figure that out.
How do I turn the potential to do everything into something.
Why does the guy with the Bentley want me to party with them because they know I know where to go but all I want is to be left alone.
Why do I want to be left alone.
Because even surrounded by people who sing your praises you're still that shy person scared to be seen by the world.
Afraid that you're not good enough.
Afraid that you won't succeed.
Afraid that no matter what potential you have inside you the one thing you want the most is out of reach.
Afraid that if you try you'll fail again and again.
Afraid of life.
Afraid of being special.
Mr. Inadequate
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